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ONLY WHEN I SLEEP

 

Here, I can see you

Here, I can freely touch you

Here, I can feel your lips

Here,…Only when I sleep

 

I closed my eyes, too excited

‘cant wait to make this love right and expected

I vanished all the pain and doubts I feel inside

‘cant wait to be with your side

 

I longed for you and now you’re mine

No curfews, ‘coz we own our time

No one else here, just the two of us

No need to hurry, no need to rush

 

I keep dreaming that you would stay

‘keep believing that you would say

That’s its me you needed and you really love

That it’s me you want to be with and want to have

 

I kept on denying that you’re gone

Kept on denying that we’re done

I kept on pretending that you didn’t slip away

Wishing and hoping that in my bed, you still lay

 

I tried so hard to walk away

‘tried to run to make everything okay

Knowing you just can’t be mine

But im still here, wasting my time…

 

 

Im too afraid to open my eyes

‘coz in real world, you’re not really mine

‘guess im scared to face reality

That you’re gone and you’re not really here with me…

 

So I opened my eyes and whispered “its over”

I touched my bed and you’re not really there

I looked away and fought back the tears

It wasn’t really true, indeed its unreal…

 

I cried in silence, deep within im bleeding

Im with this pain, cold and aching…

Hoping and waiting to close my eyes..’coz till then

Only when I sleep that I can be with you again…